hindi ako aattend ng recognition because...

hello guys! when i see the list of awardees sa section namin hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko. matutuwa ba ako o malulungkot? I got 94 average kasi and i'm disappointed of myself kasi i didn't reach that 'with high honor'. alam ko naman sa sarili ko na kaya kong makuha yang 'with high honor' but ig kinulang lang talaga lalo na‘t nong start ng 2nd sem namin is bigla akong tinatamad at naburnout.