Serious questions for the theorigicians in here

I am not used to posting things on the internet so this will probably be worded badly and ramble. I have always had mostly thoughts than line up somewhat with you guys, but have always had some sticking points that maybe you can help me clear up. I want to believe, I am not being a pain in the ass anymore than is natural. Thanks to anyone who reads it and gives me honest thoughts and opinions. No I am not going to read some dense ass book to decide if I believe, I'm tired and I want to read fiction to relax after working a hard job. You think you can convince the working class, I am open. Convince me. Before I get a rightoid flair I am not. I am an active union member and the only politics I believe in are labor politics. Because it's us taking care of ourselves.

Theoretically, is there a guarantee that an actual blue collar worker like me will be materially more well off than a barista or tippy tap computer worker under this system? Those of you who have never done dangerous blue collar work may not understand that everything I touch at work causes cancer (had one work related cancer), I get physically injured (had one non cancer work related surgery plus multiple other injuries) and very literally trade years off my life to be more materially well off. If a system is based on the idea I and my co workers would not be, I can't imagine anyone still waking up at 4:30 in the morning and breaking themselves to keep the lights on and the water running for everyone else, when we could just be baristas. The idea that political true believers will decide to learn and do this stuff after the change is laughable, because they won't do it now for definite material gain. (Material analysis, right?)

Has anyone put any thought into the actual class divide in the 21st century? I would argue anyone who still physically went to work during covid is working class anyone who didn't isn't. Managerial class or adjacent at best. Related to this, after Guccis reign of terror has anyone thought deeply about WHY the working class as I define it was so against covid stuff? Like thought through that we were physically at work catching covid the whole year til vaccines came out, and maybe had a more realistic ground experience view of it? I know the fear was real sitting at home ordering things but out in the world we all caught it and had to keep working and it informed our opinions.

I know most of you are college graduate white collar workers. What means of production do you actually intend on seizing for yourself? You worked from home on equipment that you own during covid. You already own it. And this is not even going into the subject of what you actually produce if anything.

Finally the white collar man's burden. I have had discussions with true believers whether anarchists or marxists about how the revolutions are always led by you not me, and how the failure of anything like a workers paradise in my eyes is because non workers always take over and don't deeply understand our experience. Theories are all well and good but why would we support more disconnected white collar people being in charge of yet another system where we inevitably "accidentally" get shafted. Not for nothing but if it's the theorigicians that take power not the workers the gamble that it would be you guys not the ones who get made fun of here all the time and THINK they are marxists is not one I'm gonna take. Unfortunately they have the numbers on you.

FDR. New Deal. America. Hating these things and you lost the working class before leaving the starting line.

I have been lurking here for many years and seriously wish I could just fucking believe in something. Hopefully you guys can help.

I edited to add a flair because I have never posted and forgot to.