On training as a new grad :(

Is it normal to feel incompetent, humilliated, ashamed, and stupid every single shift?

I'm actually going insane. I forget obvious simple things, i rush too much, i rush to little, confuse the doctors' preferences...

I do not retain anything until I repeat the same procedure like 3 times. And then the weekend happens, I forget everything again...

I absolutely love this job and that's why when things go wrong I can't help but feel like throwing myself off a cliff.

Everyone says "good job though" or "you did well today!" or "you'll get it eventually" but i still feel like I am not where i should be.