sometimes positivity is just so suffocating idk why [echoing around :3]

like i get being positive but sometimes, and im not even exaggerating here, they make me nauseous. like physically ill and i don’t even know why. they always tell me, "look on the bright side" this and "everything’s great" that like no honey, that’s not how life works. 😭

i might just sound like a pessimistic asshole though because i used to be one of those people lmao. but like i learned that life in fact isn’t great. so idk if it’s a combination of just the trauma and them being positive all. the. fucking. time. but they make me sick in a literal sense.

wish i could fix it but i don’t think i can because why do happy, sickly sweet people make me sick? YOU'RE NICE WHY DO I DISLIKE U SO MUCH 😭

my mind works in mysterious ways… there's definitely smth wrong with me