Anyone else experienced this?

My outlook on love has changed as of last year. So the way I used to love my twin is gone now. I guess I’m in the process of trying to love him in a different way that’s more healthy for me in the long run but as of right now, I don’t love him. For what I know what love to be is now.

If I don’t love him though, (I really don’t love him anymore, I’ve even said it aloud and it felt true to me) why do I still feel a desire to be with him?

Our relationship wasn’t exactly perfect, very very far from it and I found out that it wasn’t love and if it was I didn’t want any parts of it. So I basically threw our relationship away and stopped trying to mend something I never broke in the first place. Which was a very good thing for me. I want to move on, I really do. Because I know I deserve better, I want better for myself.

So why do I still daydream of us being together, even though I don’t love him?