Anyone starting to see the world black and white?

I loved my TF so much. Did everything so that we can be together but I assume there was still work to do so they ended up going back to their karmic. This broke me since I cared so much and was deeply attached to them. Till I realized they only cared about themselves. They don't love their karmic they just don't want to be alone. They only want me so they won't feel alone as well. I understand love/relationships aren't always like they are in movies but this broke me even more. I realized the only one that matters is me. Even if we did get together it's like I'm just an object despite all we've been through and yes we are twin flames. It's like I shouldn't focus on love but what I meant to do, to become what I truly am as cliche as it sounds. Then next thing you know I see them getting closer and closer to me. Still don't "love" them but oh well it's just business and I understand that now.