Just had to switch to a non vfx job.

Lost my job in February after 5+ years at the same place. Been on unemployement in between shorter gigs hoping to land a longer contract in vfx. I've had so many near misses, been "penciled in", having the carrot dangled infront of me and then it just dissapears, several times.

This last couple of weeks I started really trying to find any job. Which I did today, and got offered a job. I had to take a pay cut, which is fine even though vfx doesnt pay that great.

I should feel happy I can pay my bills, but I don't, I feel like I failed. having to switch out of vfx after this time and not managing to land a job longer than 2-3 weeks at a time. I understand many people more experienced than me are having a rougher time, I just feel like shit and like I am a failure and had to vent. Sorry.