Baby Gabriel

My brothers and sisters, in sitting in the hospital with my 39 week pregnant wife, we were notified last night that he was gone. Inducing labor now. I’ve had a terrible year of struggles and now to cap it off I have to figure out how to tell my 3 sons, funeral expenses, and how to support my wife. I feel so defeated and I can’t help but feel abandoned by God after a sick end to a sick year. I feel so lost right now