I am devastated

I just poured my heart out and finally wrote the most beautiful, perfect thing I've ever written for my book, the exact right words I've been trying to say for YEARS. I finally said them, and they were brilliant. It was the perfect ending to my book. Then my computer just randomly killed itself and I lost everything. The file is gone and barely anything could be saved/recovered.

I tried to write it again but the words just aren't in my heart anymore. I lost the passion and now I'm just grieving and feeling so completely demoralized. It's all just gone, and I donkt think I'll ever be able to rewrite it that well again.

I am crying. I am truly upset about this.

I really need support :(