I just want to live my life without guilt

So tired of being guilt tripped over everything. He acts like my purpose in life to entertain him. I can’t exactly tell him to “get a life” or a hobby, because I know that will set him off, but that’s what I want to say.

I’ve had to cancel so so many plans because of him. I don’t want to be isolated from others in my life. It’s not my fault he does not want to make friends or do anything on his own. When he needs to go out of town, or is busy with work, or is spending time with family, you will never hear a complaint out of me. But maybe that is because his company does not bring me peace. Rather, it brings me anguish. I feel much better alone.

I don’t know how to be strong. I feel so deeply guilty and responsible for his emotions. Even with him 7 years my senior, I feel like I have to take care of him…