I'm halfway through and finding it hard to finish

This is a place for all readers of extreme horror & splatterpunk. Fans of the grotesque and disturbing. Let this be your one stop shop for book recommendations, new book announcements, horror news, discussions + more. [No rules against self-promotion, so all authors, publishers and content creators are welcome to share their work here.]
I genuinely see no purpose in connections and social roles
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Bad influence, being trapped, internal escape
Seek book recommendations based off how something feels - photos, art, music, poetry, lyrics, etc.
Do you skip calling people by their names/using their names in the middle of a conversation?
Welcome to r/Schizoid! Schizoid personality disorder (often abbreviated as SPD or SzPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy. On this subreddit, we learn about, share, and generally discuss all things relating to SPD. Everyone (schizoid or not) is encouraged to participate, but we ask that you follow the rules found below.
I don't have this thirst for life. I just can't have it
Welcome to r/Schizoid! Schizoid personality disorder (often abbreviated as SPD or SzPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy. On this subreddit, we learn about, share, and generally discuss all things relating to SPD. Everyone (schizoid or not) is encouraged to participate, but we ask that you follow the rules found below.
Notes from Underground by Fyodor Dostoevsky
Welcome to /r/literature, a community for deeper discussions of plays, poetry, short stories, and novels. Discussions of literary criticism, literary history, literary theory, and critical theory are also welcome. We are not /r/books: please do not use this sub to seek book recommendations or homework help.
Being noticed really sucks
Welcome to r/Schizoid! Schizoid personality disorder (often abbreviated as SPD or SzPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy. On this subreddit, we learn about, share, and generally discuss all things relating to SPD. Everyone (schizoid or not) is encouraged to participate, but we ask that you follow the rules found below.
Looking for psychological invasive horror books
Need an idea what to read next? Tell us what you've enjoyed in the past, or what you're looking for, and let the community suggest a book (or books) for you to read!
I feel like I’m retired from life
Welcome to r/Schizoid! Schizoid personality disorder (often abbreviated as SPD or SzPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy. On this subreddit, we learn about, share, and generally discuss all things relating to SPD. Everyone (schizoid or not) is encouraged to participate, but we ask that you follow the rules found below.
Is this a good read?

This is a place for all readers of extreme horror & splatterpunk. Fans of the grotesque and disturbing. Let this be your one stop shop for book recommendations, new book announcements, horror news, discussions + more. [No rules against self-promotion, so all authors, publishers and content creators are welcome to share their work here.]
Creepy hospitality, disoriented reality
Seek book recommendations based off how something feels - photos, art, music, poetry, lyrics, etc.
Were you wired from a young age to question/reject societal norms?
Welcome to r/Schizoid! Schizoid personality disorder (often abbreviated as SPD or SzPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy. On this subreddit, we learn about, share, and generally discuss all things relating to SPD. Everyone (schizoid or not) is encouraged to participate, but we ask that you follow the rules found below.
A mix of schizoid state and existential awe?
Welcome to r/Schizoid! Schizoid personality disorder (often abbreviated as SPD or SzPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy. On this subreddit, we learn about, share, and generally discuss all things relating to SPD. Everyone (schizoid or not) is encouraged to participate, but we ask that you follow the rules found below.
Hyper-awareness makes the inner void inescapable
Welcome to r/Schizoid! Schizoid personality disorder (often abbreviated as SPD or SzPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy. On this subreddit, we learn about, share, and generally discuss all things relating to SPD. Everyone (schizoid or not) is encouraged to participate, but we ask that you follow the rules found below.
Isolation is addictive
Welcome to r/Schizoid! Schizoid personality disorder (often abbreviated as SPD or SzPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy. On this subreddit, we learn about, share, and generally discuss all things relating to SPD. Everyone (schizoid or not) is encouraged to participate, but we ask that you follow the rules found below.
When fantasies become realities, it's very disappointing
Welcome to r/Schizoid! Schizoid personality disorder (often abbreviated as SPD or SzPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy. On this subreddit, we learn about, share, and generally discuss all things relating to SPD. Everyone (schizoid or not) is encouraged to participate, but we ask that you follow the rules found below.
The core frustration of people's expectations
Welcome to r/Schizoid! Schizoid personality disorder (often abbreviated as SPD or SzPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy. On this subreddit, we learn about, share, and generally discuss all things relating to SPD. Everyone (schizoid or not) is encouraged to participate, but we ask that you follow the rules found below.
What is your experience with online friendships?
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Beyond numbness
Welcome to r/Schizoid! Schizoid personality disorder (often abbreviated as SPD or SzPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy. On this subreddit, we learn about, share, and generally discuss all things relating to SPD. Everyone (schizoid or not) is encouraged to participate, but we ask that you follow the rules found below.
The Empty Core. By Jeffrey Seinfeld
Welcome to r/Schizoid! Schizoid personality disorder (often abbreviated as SPD or SzPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy. On this subreddit, we learn about, share, and generally discuss all things relating to SPD. Everyone (schizoid or not) is encouraged to participate, but we ask that you follow the rules found below.
Excessive Love
Welcome to r/Schizoid! Schizoid personality disorder (often abbreviated as SPD or SzPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy. On this subreddit, we learn about, share, and generally discuss all things relating to SPD. Everyone (schizoid or not) is encouraged to participate, but we ask that you follow the rules found below.
Infantile Dependence and Mature Dependence
Welcome to r/Schizoid! Schizoid personality disorder (often abbreviated as SPD or SzPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy. On this subreddit, we learn about, share, and generally discuss all things relating to SPD. Everyone (schizoid or not) is encouraged to participate, but we ask that you follow the rules found below.
Phantasy and Dream Analysis
Welcome to r/Schizoid! Schizoid personality disorder (often abbreviated as SPD or SzPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy. On this subreddit, we learn about, share, and generally discuss all things relating to SPD. Everyone (schizoid or not) is encouraged to participate, but we ask that you follow the rules found below.
Parataxic distortion
Welcome to r/Schizoid! Schizoid personality disorder (often abbreviated as SPD or SzPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy. On this subreddit, we learn about, share, and generally discuss all things relating to SPD. Everyone (schizoid or not) is encouraged to participate, but we ask that you follow the rules found below.
Sadistic superego, bad object relationships and perfectionism
Welcome to r/Schizoid! Schizoid personality disorder (often abbreviated as SPD or SzPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy. On this subreddit, we learn about, share, and generally discuss all things relating to SPD. Everyone (schizoid or not) is encouraged to participate, but we ask that you follow the rules found below.